Some quotes I hope may resonate with you.
"There is much discussion of the haves and have-nots, but very little discussion of the doers and the do-nots, those that contribute and those who merely take." - Thomas Sowell
"If you end up with a boring miserable life because you listened to your mom, your dad, your teacher, your priest, or some guy on the television telling you how to do your shit, then you deserve it." - Frank Zappa
"All big things come from small beginnings. The seed of every habit is a single, tiny decision. But as that decision is repeated, a habit sprouts and grows stronger." - James Clear
"Alcohol may be man's worst enemy, but the bible says love your enemy." - Frank Sinatra