Some quotes I hope may resonate with you.
"The best days of my life are given over to uninterrupted debauchery, but these are, alas, undependable and increasingly difficult to arrange." - Tim Kreider
"When no one will pay directly for your subject matter, that's often a sign that something's gone wrong." - Alain de Botton
"The difference between the people you admire and everybody else [is that the former are] the people who read." - Brian Callen
"The poorest way to face life is to face it with a sneer." - Teddy Roosevelt