having a deadname is kind of like having a truename in that you can say it out loud to cause me physical pain
it is unlike a truename in that if you say it knowingly i punch you instead of being compelled to do your bidding
man i wish i had a truename
On the first cycle, I learned love. I watched my infancy again, days I could not even have remembered, with a grandmother’s patience, watched my parents’ mistakes and saw them cry and finally, finally forgave.
On the second cycle, I learned beauty. I memorized prose and verse and lingered as long as I could in every moment, recontextualizing. I have tasted this food, this woman, this night before, but the first time I was all adrenaline. Now I am reverence.
On the third cycle I realized this cycle thing fucking sucked.
How to Garden
• remember that you’re a Host. You have to invite in the Life, and give it a reason to stay.
• leave the gaps in the stones and the masonry for the bugs to shelter in
• remember that you will never be able to waste as much water as For-Profit Agriculture does
• that said, Native Species already know how to Make Do with what water falls from the sky where you live, if you choose conscientiously
• without a little simulated herbivory, some plants just forget to branch out and end up knocking themselves over going top-heavy. Watching this lesson play out in my own garden was, for me, a potent metaphor for how adversity in one’s development helps make one robust; and how those who experience no hardship tend towards fragility.
• Birds may eat your seeds, but they bring seeds of their own, and fertilizer, in their droppings.
• Plants move. They’re just slow. Be aware of this.
• if you want a Plant to produce Fruit, it needs Fertilizing. Gotta pay your workers.
• the best time to cut grass is when you’re angry
• the worst time to prune trees is when you’re angry
• Fire is more friend than foe, but your neighbors may disagree. Discretion, and a good hose, is key
• if you make yourself a Friend to Insects, you get to live part of your life as a Benevolent Giant.
• to Love something is to be Human; from our helpless Infancy to our propensity to Domestication. Love, as a verb; the act of cherishing something so that it may flourish, is a keystone experience in what makes Being Human different from Being a Shark or Being an Oak.
• if you water just before sundown, it soaks in better
Uncredited Photographer Woman Anti-fascist Partisans Associated with the Partito d'Azione During the Liberation of Milan, Italy 1945
vibrating plug that goes off when your navigation app has to reroute you for missing your turn.
new jersey.
anti-AI because i want to maximize my shot at getting roko’s basilisked later in life and for no other reason
the number of spacecraft failures recently has been absolutely insane and it all comes down to tech bros barging into the industry going "it's not that hard wtf is nasa so bad" and then completely skipping out on any testing
Recently, a privately funded asteroid mission failed immediately after launch. Here are some choice excerpts from the company's blog post about it:
ALTthey cost that much because they do integration testing
ALT.....by skipping integration testing
ALT"skipping integration testing was the right move actually"
ALTcome fucking on.
ALTAND YOU FUCKING LAUNCHED ANYWAYS
ALTit failed immediately you dipshits
ALTor you could. i don't know. do integration testing?
Wonder if the tech fanboys will be as accepting of this when human lives are at risk
know your terminology: if someone you've unpersoned tries to elaborate, they're doubling down, and if they change their mind, they're backpedaling.
It comes here sometimes, to watch snow caress steel. The substation seems so pretty and dignified in the cold. This one wishes it could give it a hug and thank it for doing a good job.
